Loss and change are difficult.
Over a short period, I've experienced the loss of a job and ministry I passionately loved. I was a final caregiver to a loved one, after their exhausting, long, mental and physical illness. I recently have lost close friends and close church friends who were like family to me. It seems unending. I can't say I understand. I love deeply. I grieve deeply. It's all about me- me- me! LOL
Through this, I'm reminded however, of a song lyric that says,
"I've had more gains than losses, I've known more joy than hurt, as His grace rolls down on me, undeserved...For God's been good in my life. I feel blessed beyond my wildest dreams, when I go to sleep each night. Though I've had my share of hard times, I wouldn't change them if I could, cause through it all, God's been good..."
No matter the landscape right now, God's been good.
The ford where Jacob wrestled and was changed, Jabbok, means, a place of emptying, or to empty itself.
How appropriate.
Lord,
Empty me of me. I can't control anything or anyone; but me and my attitude.
Thank you for taking this struggle Lord. Change me through it. Teach me YOUR way, and let me not lean on my own understanding, but on the comfort of YOUR promises in the wilderness. Conform me to the image of YOUR Son, as I walk in faith, limping and hurt. I choose to lean on the heavenly and not the earthly. You said you would never leave nor forsake me. I know I can rest in YOUR Word and in the pleasure of YOUR will.
Amen.
